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Ok I'm done with my rant now....and onto a matter that all who know me have been asking 'where have I been and what have I been doing?' Well simply put it this way....I went to San Antonio at the beginning of spring break and then came home after a few days and went to stay with a friend and my boyfriend tried to push things too far and it start an all out war in my moms mind when she heard from my friend who I'd told over the phone (since I tell this boy everything he tells my mom for me...which is better for me.) Things were said between my mother and my now ex boyfriend and I was never aloud to see him again (I actually sorta didn't mind after what happened.) But to my dismay things only got worse and he constantly txted me and the so called 'friend' I had gone over to stay with made me feel like shit saying everything was my fault (this was mainly do to the fact that she use to fuck my boyfriend and what not so it made her jealous to see me with him when she couldn't mess with him and she would put shit in our heads to make us mad at each other.) And everything was just simply pinned on me for not wanting to have sex with him that Sunday.... (of course...I always believe everything is my fault even when I know it's probably not.) And while all this was going on my internet was cut off so I couldn't get on da....and since I've had no one to talk to till now....I've been tearing myself apart over this, having nightmares every night of my ex and my 'friend' trying to kill me or something along the lines....